​- Chasing the Goan Sun

​​A small piece that I wrote while sitting in a cafe in Goa, fitting for this trip.

"A cold beer. The silent gushing of water hitting the rocks. The slow music vibrating among everyone present there. Strangers but somehow related. Goa is not all about raves, you find peace, if you search for it among hidden things."

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- Sincerely, Semester’s End

​This was probably the first time I felt this. I thought walking into the campus after I passed out would be far more cinematic than I had romanticised in my mind. I expected 'manasse' to be played in my head with each passing step, old memories gushing back in. Instead it felt....normal. The moment when something felt unusual, was when I started noticing a lot of unfamiliar faces. Faces that were the future of this campus. At that moment, probably for the first time, I can admit I had selfish thoughts going on in my head. I just wanted this campus to myself and my peers who I have known and who has known me. These new familiar faces felt weird, but I guess that is life. New people come in, to take your place and push it forward. As much as I wished the campus would just stop existing after the ones I knew and loved would pass out, was just ridiculous, but hey the mind thinks, what the mind thinks.!

After a few years, this campus will belong to a scared first year student who's stepping on to their first step of the experience called life, and also to the final year student who became an adult over the course of 3/4 years. The one thing that will remain across all the batches, will always be the memories that gave them the first taste of life.

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- Ctrl + Alt + Feelings

​Have you come across a situation in life, where your head says, "Dont! You are just gonna F it up", yet you still do it. There are times even when we are full of life & thoughts, something just feels incomplete. Something just doesn't fit in here or there. Something just doesn't belong here. Most of our life, its just a battle of the heart vs the head, well atleast for most of the important decisions in life. Sometimes you never know what is good for you. The grass is always greener on the other side. Sometimes, you jump on a boat, travel to the other side, realising it and saying to yourself, "oh yeah, F-ed it up again." Soon enough you are gonna realise life is all about F ups, and the minimal damage you can face next you face the same situation. Sometimes luck is not your side. Even if you choose the clearly obvious right answer, it's never right. As said earlier, our whole life is about the two songs on our eternal playlist, listen to your head or listen to your heart, and the annoying ads that come in between those are sometimes the bad luck and unexpected things in life, that's just bound to happen. 🎶

Well, thinking stuff like this and going deep is what I do, do you do the same or are you normal?

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- Still, I Rise

​When the sun sets, you wait till the sun rises. 🌤

You move on with your life. Go forward. You take hits but you still go on, but why do you move on? Why do you go forward?
You expect there is something better out there in the world. You often hear in literature and dialogues, "but what if this is destiny? & what if this is meant to be?"

There is no destiny which you wish might fall right into our hands. You choose your path. You look back at some of the paths you took and wonder what would be the present if the other road was taken. Both the paths might be filled with happiness and sorrow, but the ending might be different, for sure. You know, the one time we start to think such things is when we hit a block in our life. "What if?" Simultaneously, we think that destiny or fate has something up in their sleeves....

You think you will score more marks after flunking this try. You think you will find love again. You think you will be a better person now that you have gotten to know your faults. Why do you think there's better things to look forward to?

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A short scene I wrote late at night.

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As he lay on his bed, staring at the never end spiraling fan, he felt an emotion that he experienced everyday. A deep sucking,....something that was pulling him far far away from the reality and pushing him towards existential crisis. He lay there motionless, where he felt an emotion not knowing what was happening to him or what he could do to stop this. He simply blames it on fate and continues to lie there.

"Hey", greets a greyish figure sitting on his chair.

"Oh, you are back", he greets him back.

GF (Grey Figure) -So the usual routine huh.

Him - listen man, if you are here to advice and trying to "cheer me up", please shut up. Honestly not in the mood.

GF - I am not going to today, relax.

Him - I don't believe you.

GF - Anyways just speak it out, you know nothing goes about me right?.

Him - *silence for a few seconds* - sometimes you find yourself in a place where you don't know what's happening to you, or why it's happening—and all you can do is exist through it.

GF - *sighs quietly* it's the usual thing then.

Him - *does not hear it* it's like just, what to say, going forward with two legs on two boats? Get it? Yeah. You feel so lonely, yet you dont trust anyone to share that space. You are happy, suddenly something hits you hard. You are devoid of problems, still something...reminds me.
Honestly man, sometimes the thoughts which I have, I swear I dont know if I'll ever find answers for it.

GF - Anyways you wont find the answers today. Time is almost 3:30 AM. You have class. Try to sleep, before getting your mental health murdered again.

Him - *sigh* okay.

 

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- TITLE - The Guy Behind the Guy.

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- Silent Rage, Quiet Lies

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There always is a mask for people nowadays. No, I'm not talking about the masks for corona. The mask required is for the art of faking. Trust is no longer a thing that is consistent for us. We never know when and how a person changes their views and turns their back on us. A person can stay silent and all innocent, while their inner soul harbors the raging enmity that they need to let out. It is always okay to let those feelings out. It is NECESSARY to let it out, until it becomes something that causes trouble to everyone around you. Why not have just one soul—irrespective of it being good or bad—rather than having two that dwindle with you and everyone you love? 🥀

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